You know when you're in that situation you have rehearsed in your mind, the words are and lines are swirling around in your brain waiting to be left out. And instead of speaking what you feel and think you hold back and take the bigger road and wish them good luck instead?
Ya well I may not regret a whole lot from this summer, it has been honestly hands down the best two months of my life, but I do regret holding back the other night. And to put my mind at ease I shall say this now.
When I was told about her I would have gotten up and walked away, turned back and said "You know I loved you for six months. For six months me and everyone else in the world saw what you refused to see. For six months I loved you. I loved you when I found out about your debt. I loved you when I found out what type of porn you watch. I loved you when you weren't there for me. I loved you when you called me about fights with your mom. I loved you when I found out about your past. I loved you when I found out you doubted your life and the choices you have made. I supported you when you said you wanted to find yourself. I respected you when you said you didn't want a gf or anything physical because of this. I loved you even more when you told me your darkest secret. I may not be the nicest person in the world, and I may have opinions about things and people, but I love like nothing else, despite everything a person can throw at me...and you may not see this still but one day you will realize you picked the wrong girl. And your sorry wasn't good enough to replace those six months I wasted."
And then I would have made you pay because you know what, I feel like after six months of loving you and you leading me on, that you owed me at least that.
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