I can't sleep.
My mind is forcing my body to stay awake so that it can process endless thoughts and rambles and questions. Questions like "am I really a nutcase?" and "What does it feel like to be that insecure?"
What have I done?
Why does this bother me so much?
My efforts are wasted on answering these.
I just want to become one with nature. Seek out God in the beauty that he created for us. I want to learn to love and not run away from it. I want to not wear my heart on my sleeve. I want to just run and embrace life. I.want.to.be.Seen.Heard.Felt.Impacted.
I want my epiphany.
I want marriage and babies and growing old and living in the country. I want my cow.
I want you to be perfect for me.
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