These past two weeks have been really hard. I keep trying to stay focused on all the amazing things in life, but I can't help the way I feel. I miss my best friend. I miss talking to him about funny shit that happens. I miss going to church with him, I miss meeting up and grabbing drinks at Meconies with him. I know that I did this to myself and I should have been smarter about our friendship...lesson learned? Hope so. I just think that no matter who you are...when you find someone that blows your mind and makes you feel that way, it's always a disappointment when they don't return the feelings. It's expected. I just keep thinking that maybe one day he will realize how awesome I am and come knocking on my door? I dream lame dreams.
The stupid thing is that all these AWESOME guys keep coming out of the woods and telling me about how they dig me mucho and I should be ecstatic about it...but I don't know.
I have started listening to all the songs that used to remind me of Christian but now don't...that's good improvement right?
My list of songs:
Regina Spektor- Fidelity
Regina Spektor- Us
Missy Higgins- Special Two
Missy Higgins- How Long
Kate Nash- We Go On
Kate Nash- Shit Song
Kate Nash- Nicest Thing
Nake Nash- Merry Happy
Well Portland was ok...here was the highlights from it...Voodooooo!!!!!!
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