I wrote this September 2006 but I feel it's also for March 2009.

Dear Friend,

You know what I'm talking about. I mean, you haven't even heard what I'm trying to say, but I know that you understand. It's weird you understand me, I don't know if you realize it or not but you do. Most people just pretend to know what the heck I'm talking about or who I am, but you, you don't even try and you succeed at it. And this, I need to get this off my chest.

So this is what it feels like to be completely over something, and then fall into something crazy. I have searched for years to be over this something, but the whole time it just felt like I was under it. Just waiting for that one day when I would wake up and it would be over. You know what I'm talking about. Something to big happens and it’s like wow. And all you can do is stop and breathe in everything in that one brief moments of silence that follows it. And that silence can go on forever. I can't sleep. I feel like my whole life I have been asleep. I need to go out and live life. Watch the ocean waves at night, dancing among the trees below the stars, or I don't know, lay and feel the coolness of the blades of grass on my arms and legs. This is it! And I'm here, waiting for what comes next. Do you run or jump? Do you look for someone to explain it all to you? Do you seek revenge or vengeance for the catastrophe that caused the silence? Or do you sit and take it in?

You know what I'm talking about, when your dream life meets real life, when you are just here.
I'm here. I am here. I am right here. You know what I mean, I am here. That's more than most people can offer you.
So here I am, offering you me being here.
Probably the most I have ever given anyone in my life. Sounds like a good deal doesn't it? You can do whatever you want with it I guess.

There is something about you I don't know, different, but a good different. You drag me in, pull me uder and I can't get enough of it. I'm here. And maybe I'm making a fool of myself by writing you this, I really wanted to call you but I don't want to ruin whatever it is that's going on in my mind. This letter I’m giving you was about nothing. But you know what? It's about something; this stupid letter is about everything. It is everything. In this one letter contains everything that ever matters to me. Maybe it's not in the words but its here, if you look close enough and you know what to look for you can find it. Funny how life just happens. Maybe more people should realize that. That this, everyday letters is what life is. Phone calls that aren't being made, this is life. The stuff we think, the feelings we try to hid and control, our actions or laughs our dreams. This is life? And what's the point of waiting for silence? On a scale of one to ten everyday is a ten. I hope you see the ten. I hope you notice it when it comes and that you hold on to it.

You have this amazing way of making my life a little bit better, I don't know how you do it, I'm pretty sure you don't try, but hey. You seem to be good at a lot of things you aren't trying to do. Hidden talents you have in abundance. Never a bad thing. I don't know what I am trying to accomplish by writing you this. Nothing? Whatever it is I don't know. So here I am. Emailing you, in some weird way I just told my everything. But I'm writing you because you know and you understand. I'm tried of everyone living in silence, and I want to take it (the world=it) and roll it. And I want it to roll me. I want it to grab me and beat the crap out of me with life. I hope it rolls you too. I hope you live this kind of life, not being afraid of failure and of not being great because you are so great. I don't think you realize how great you are. Here I am telling you that you are an amazing guy and you are here. It’s pretty awesome, like you. Like the song says, I don't know where I'm going it doesn't matter anymore...
It doesn't matter anymore. My new motto for life. Live life with me. I'm just offering you a different path to take, no incentive, no real reward. Be here, live life, see the ten.

I pray that God gives you a nice peaceful audacious moment where the world gets clear and his voice is all you hear, and his words are the only actions you take and in that precise moment you are truly awake to everything God was is and is to come on your ride. And that you grab on to the ten and never let go and finally reach that greatness you seek.

I don't want a response from you for this. It was more about me getting all of this out of my mind so I can make sense of it all. Thanks for reading this; well I hope you read this. I mean I wouldn't mind getting a phone call from you or whatever. But this letter. This is it you know? This moment we just had. I hope you realized this was a moment. This was our moment, a nice peaceful audacious moment. I hope you get this. I think you might. I just really hope you do.